Venice Craven

At the moment I'm finding it difficult to get the desire to roleplay. I did three emotes last night for the first time in a fortnight and even that was hard. But for me, the fun has been taken out of it.

I hope it is something I'll eventually get back into as roleplay was something I have always enjoyed, and I feel like I'm cheating the character to leave her mid-way like this. The longer I leave it as well, the harder it is as I have to explain an absense in an important time for Venice (her trial).

One of the reasons I find myself unable to play at the moment is largely (as you may of guessed) due to OOC reasons. Every time I think of roleplaying I'm worrying, am I emoting too much? Will people think I'm gaining RP too fast? If my character did X in this situation will it be perceived as bad? What if I did Y? Am I roleplaying with X too much? And it's developed now to the point it is no longer fun. I'd rather not at all. It's easier.

Although RP points have never really meant anything to me, 'it's all about the story', I had always enjoyed the excitment of gaining a new star, and now I dread it. I would happily set all my points to zero and in fact had 50k (nearly two years worth of RPP) taken off my account in the hopes of alleviating this feeling and satisifying others but still.. meh.

Hopefully the feeling will pass.