Welcome to my Mind

Lurking

Nybrylla — 2005-11-29T02:06:51-05:00

I'm waiting here, yes...but for what?

I sit and watch, as if it will come to me.

Watching you.

The music filters to me here, calling, yet I remain. Not this year.

Waiting. Silent, patient (how unusual)...

But I've purpose now, to come out. You gave it to me.

Poor fool, I'm coming for you.

Brooding

Nybrylla — 2005-09-30T00:55:03-05:00

I wish that ye could hear me, my love. In the ways of old; speaking silently. If only I could hear ye alone, to at least know that ye are alright.

It's been so long since I've seen ye. Did ye listen to me, and now shant return?

I wish ye hadn't...He can teach me so that I will never harm ye.

I'm...not even sure where I'm going with these thoughts to myself.

I'm lonely, yes. Moreso since he pointed it out to me. Telling me that I'm in need of friendship and causing me to realize I've nothing. Not any of them, not Narus...not ye.

An Acquired Taste

Nybrylla — 2005-09-15T21:37:22-05:00

Blood and bones I wish I could take them to the baths first!

I taste their dirt and sweat, caked upon them.

The others tasted of salt from their sweat, yes. From the struggle..but they were cleaner.

So long trying to bloody get in again and now I wish to be back out.

In/Out

Nybrylla — 2005-09-15T21:21:41-05:00

The young one was right...We do remember things like that, and that did fucking hurt.

Perhaps Not As Easy As I'd Thought...

Nybrylla — 2005-08-29T15:44:29-05:00

The young one. The Tir.

More kin than the others, I suppose, should I find myself accepting that term for them.

Last I saw him I slew him. Easily. Both he and his companion. Left the bodies in their pools of blood in the hall of the baths, though his head was severed and kicked further down the corridor.

Now I'm relieved..nearly excited to see him.

He understands. If he believed me, that is.

At War With Myself

Nybrylla — 2005-08-26T13:17:43-05:00

Too hungry, always hungry...

Too hungry...too melancholy, too full of thought. I'm exhausted.

I've tried to make it last, your gift, but couldn't merely knowing it's there.

When Will It End?

Nybrylla — 2005-08-24T12:01:02-05:00

Ye told him that ye offered mercy!

Do not now remain silent as the Others were with me.

Help me!

Clarity Leads to Further Haze

Nybrylla — 2005-08-22T11:18:09-05:00

I've obviously not given murder a second thought. At first I did. I nearly couldn't bring myself to do it but Narus pushed me and I've since grown numb to it. (That was a different kind, however.)

I'd not even killed that man, though. I knew it was necessary, my body swept into action without my mind's consent. Instinct?

But as I realized what it was I was doing...Horror...Disgust swept over me.

Everything suddenly became clear, yet confused me all the more. The pain. The sickness. Both gone afterward. I wanted to weep but instead I laughed. I laid upon the forest floor and I laughed.

[OOC] I'm baaaaaack!

Nybrylla — 2005-08-22T11:11:50-05:00

A sort of rough time for my return, but I'm trying none the less. Work has kept me quite busy, though I'm done with my internship September 2nd, and then begin school September 7th. Not too sure what my free time will be like taking 18 credits, but I'm sure I'll have a little time now and then.

I've actually started RPing again a little bit ago, but the MUD was incredibly quiet and left me with nothing to post about, really. However, with some recent advertising we've got ourselves a good 20 new players so far, and things have begun to pick up.

When I'm home I tend to just do my RP in that bit of time I have, so for now I'll likely do my blogging from work as they've not had much for me to do lately anyway ;) The biggest event in my rp thus far actually happened after I sneakily downloaded gmud and logged in from work this passed Friday, actually. heh heh.

[OOC] Time

Nybrylla — 2005-06-25T23:09:48-05:00

Meh...with work starting July 5th (and my orientation this tuesday) hopefully I'll still have things to blog about given the limited time I'd have to rp when working 9-5 and also taking commuting time and such into consideration. Or hopefully there are some people on when I have the free time too ;) Summer tends to steal the player base away temporarily as usually people go out more and such. Not that I don't enjoy the company of the late night regulars like Ashen, Ozymandias and Allen :) Just hard to try and move some things along without others as well, as I'm sure is the situation with them too. No one's fault though.

O.K. I'll stop rambling now. ;)

Note to self: Fiddle with blog settings to try and find a way to have the few most recent posts show until there's an update rather than there being just a blank if some time has passed.

Alone

Nybrylla — 2005-06-25T22:49:01-05:00

I don't recall ever feeling so idle..though as of late I've often sought some secluded space for myself.

Tzoli truly hit the nail on the head with her hammer...it's awfully lonely in my mind.

Ever Learning

Nybrylla — 2005-06-15T15:28:47-05:00

I'd barely been awake. I'd just sat up and saw his face there, peering in and his narrow eyes blinking slightly at the change of light from the outside.

"It is you I saw, good. I would speak with you if you have a moment."

"Aye, I've time."

He seems uneasy here, as though trespassing and in danger of discovery. Am I trespassing again? I'd thought not. I've been here for a time without his return and I highly doubt that he would have since that encounter. After a then-dryth knew where he hid. Taliesin likely came looking for him here as well. Could he be that bold?

"Are you still looking to find a place to stay?" he asks quietly, his gruff bass voice rumbling throughout the small room.

[OOC] Stupid log....

Nybrylla — 2005-06-13T15:09:55-05:00

*Leaves a blank space here for a critical entry that will be added in at a later time as currently the log refuses to open and a solution must be found*

Exposed

Nybrylla — 2005-06-10T20:42:48-05:00

I doubt he wishes to truly think on this. He said he'd meet me here to speak with me more on it, but he never came. I grew restless...ventured to the outpost hoping he'd be home. I didn't care how agressively I seemed to pursue it.

It was by chance that we crossed paths. But when has it not been byt chance? I found no black dye in the outpost and walked back towards the city with the Protector, as surely a clothier's would have some. My hair has not been in its natural color for so long it looks foreign to me now. Not my own.

Even when I found him he seemed to have wanted to rush past me..Avoid me. Having revealed who I am to him, did he merely not dare to outwardly refuse?

[OOC] Phew..

Nybrylla — 2005-06-10T20:28:56-05:00

Lots of entries today. Two down, and two to go. After some time of not being able to RP while my grandfather was in from Puerto Rico, and also for IC reasons I've been really producted. RPing 6-7 hours straight. 0.o I'm usually not one for logs, but I've had to over the last few days. /A lot/ of stuff has happened, and being that I've been RPing until my brain is burned out and can't think of anymore emotes, I've not had time to blog about them after they happen. Did the first one today before going into any RP, and the second after 7 hours of really good RP. Third one coming up now as I wait on some friends, and the fourth will come likely tomorrow at some point, unless I get too caught up in the organized RP we'll be having...then It'll be two more on Sunday. heheh.

It feels good to be so enthused about RP, blogging, etc. And it's not been a bad day overall. I got called back for the paid internship I applied for with the NY Post's Marketing and Promotions department and will be reporting to orientation July 5th. Also got back that final pesky grade that was missing for the Spring semester, giving me a total of four A's, one A-, a GPA of 3.94 for the semester, and a 3.85 cumulative GPA for the two years I've completed. Yay!