March 27, 2006
An amazing event
Well two things of major note has happened. I can still barely believe them. The first is I seem to have developed an enemy. One with more then a little skill I might add. That however I will deal with another time. Well, if he lives that is. Oh my really have already mentioned more then I ought to. The other event does by far out shine the first.
I guess I should start at the beginning. I am not sure how I can. I am so excited I can barely put pen to paper. It is an event such that I am tempted to take these few scraps of paper and toss them into the nearest fire and stop it all together. No. I must try to give those that find this some idea of what happened, who I was. It is after all, all I have.
Okay I am sorry I don't think I have slept in days now. I can not stop thinking about it. Oh the beginning I am sorry. It started with me deciding no matter what I was going to make a sacrifice that would please the Dark Queen. I, thought about this all logically. I found a container to collect my sacrifice, I bathed, I waited for the time of the day that I thought would most please her. Then I cut myself. Well truth be told a tad deeper then I meant to. So with blood dripping from my hand and a pot full of blood I paniced a little. Surely Kali would know what I should do. I ran to find her the last place was the inn. So into the inn I run, carrying a pot of blood even as blood dripped off my hand.
To make a long story a bit more managable I was graced an audience with my the Dark Queen! She spoke to me. She gave me more direction. I dare not write what I was told but I have it committed to memory. Everyword. I shall not forget. I might not know why she started me on this path. But I do know where to start now. My life has meaning. I have a path to walk. What the path is I will not say as I know not why she started me on this path. All I know is she did not mention alchemy so I will be pulling away from its research for a while. She did not tell me to stop but did not tell me to continue. So as time allows I will persue it.
I can not be happier. I must be the luckiest woman. The Dark Queen actually spoke to me. She did more then that too she spared my life again. Which makes me ashmed for doubting her involvement in the first one. Much I have to attone for, and I shall attone and worship her till she calles me to her and gives me rest from this place.
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March 15, 2006
Guards and Reeves
I guess it is time to talk about this. They seem to be something I am running into more and more. Maybe if I spend sometime thinking about this I can come to a solution.
Let me start by explaining to recent run in with them then maybe try to explain my fears of them. Well that is easy really. They can throw you in jail! I have heard rumors on the streets among those who beg that they will at times clean up an area. Sweep all the worthless into a jail cell. I no long beg but my worth can not be high. Will I be swept into a jail cell so some noble will not have to see me? It scares me more then I would like to mention.
The later incident was when I was still trying to sacrifice the blood of rats to the Dark Queen. From a recent trip I found myself covered in more then a little blood. Why I thought the reeve would not notice this I have no idea. Never the less I was stopped and questioned about it. He seemed to accept my reasons for such and let me continue on my way. I thought I was going to start to cry. I feel to me knees and started calling him noblity and the such. What a mess I made of that. But released is a good thing.
The most recent event was even more scarey. A man wandered into the square where I was resting and watching the suns set. Well I took one look at his blue cloak and the black streak in his hair and knew he was the main reeve. I decided to get myself back out of there fore he grew tired of looking at one so worthless. He noticed me even not covered in blood. I had to answer a few questions about where I was going. I told him I needed to tend the candles in the temple. Guess what happened next should not of suprised me but it did. He thought I meant the ones in the main temple. I almost corrected him but why take chances by this point he too was letting me go.
I am so confused if I am considered of enough worth to not be thrown in jail. I think I will continue to not take any chances. It will be hard to worship the Dark Queen while rotting in jail.
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March 13, 2006
Worthless
Worthless! I can not believe it. That is what I was told worthless! I despise that word. I have been told that the blood of rats is worthless to the Dark Queen. I can not even begin to explain my frustration and anger.
Since my return from certain death I have been working to find out and please the Dark Queen. I have saved the coins as many as I can. I will not beg anymore so I find myself outside the gates of the city looking for herbs and such. Soon I had a dagger then a sheath. I found a way with little coins out of my precious stash to learn some training. The ways I did this well are not that important to this rant so I will probley talk about it another time. Never the less I found training with dagger to be enough to slay rats about town.
Why did I do this? Well to please the Dark Queen. But no the Dark Queen is not happy with that. She does not care for the blood of rats. They are worthless! So that means all the training I have spent on daggers is also worthless. If it is just my blood she seeks it would require little training in daggers to hit myself!
I feel like the Dark Queen has offered me hope, given me the chance to see myself as something greater then a worthless street rat. Then she says nope you spent all this time and effort and you are still worthless. It is one of the most painful things I have felt. I am tempted to give her all the blood she wants. I am tempted to go in her temple. Lie on the altar naked and cut myself from one end to another. Let the floor be filled with my blood.
How could she not approve of what I have done so far? I am so angry and confused. Only the death of Joshua hurt more. But dear, dear Joshua rest in peace my dear. What is it you want of me Dark Queen? Is there a reason you brought me back? Is it possible I owe my life to another? I remember not what happened in the sewers. Maybe my life was spared by another then the queen? I am so lost and confused. The tears well up again. I will have to finish this another time.
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March 12, 2006
Alchemy
Alchemy I know a few potions or the recipes for a few potions I think and a bunch of dyes. I am not really sure what any of the potions are used for. But a strange thing did happen the other day.
Okay let me see I made a vial the other day and started to try to figure out what it might do. I stared at it. I asked a few people if they knew what it might be but I got nowhere. In an act of desperation I finally drank it. I can tell you with certain it did not kill me so it must not be poison. Exactly what it did I am still unsure of.
I am finding it hard to find one of the herbs I need for that particular potion. The other two I have not made yet either. It is always one ingredient I can not find. I am giving up on finding it in the wilds and am going to start to look in shops for them.
The last thing that was strange is I might of found an other alchemist. Much I know not about her. I have been given conflicting reports about if I can trust her. Let me just state when I found out she might be an alchemist too there were too many people around to talk about it.
I fear this up coming search for supplies is going to lead me to the outpost. I have been told there is an alchemist shop and a herbalist shop there. Course all I know is it is to the south. Perhaps an adventure will give me time to think about what I need to do.
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March 09, 2006
religion
I lose track of time easily. I guess it is from living on the streets sometimes I am awake during the day sometimes in the evening. Days run together. I found myself scrambling for knowledge about the Dark Queen. So little was known by me.
A few days ago? I ran into someone I was seeking.
She is a priestess of the Red Moon. I wanted to seek her out but she was nobility and I was worthless. I was sitting in the square by the fountain daydreaming when she approached me! What luck. I of course made a total fool of myself but that is okay. And even though we got interupted a few times many many good things happened. She invited me to join them for worship! I am so excited. She even offered me a place to stay in the church so I could sleep under a roof instead of out on the streets. I could not tell her then that I would not be able to for days take her up on that offer. I have not had the honor of seeing her again. And I do so hope she is feeling better.
I have huge news though of a more current nature. I am now in possession of something that I sought out for so long. I now carry a dagger! Carry is a good word too as I lack the funds for a sheath for it. Now I can make sacrifices to the dark queen. I know she wants blood. I will start with the blood of rats. I will bring these prizes back to her Church. I have also heard that the gods like human blood and that of the worshiper. I will have to offer some of that too. Not sure how much though. I do not want to offend her with weak sacrifices, but I have no idea what is good and bad. I hope she will forgive me if I fail at this. Now that I am ready to make sacrifices and have a dagger to get the blood the dark queen seeks I think I shall enter her temple again and take that nice priestess up on the offer of shelter.
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March 07, 2006
Some thoughts on religion
I have been talking to almost anyone that will talk to me. Well except the people that look like guards. They scare me that however is a topic for another day. Oh right religion. I have been doing some research and am at a impass it would seem. There is a noble woman that is a priestess of my temple but nobles have guards and well that seems kind of scarey to me. So I have tried asking around to see if I could find some people that will talk to me about it.
I have yet to find anyone that is of the Red Moon Church. Having said that I have found some interesting things out. It would seem most of the gods like blood. Who would of guessed? I have also found a lovely person who is a teacher for the god of knowledge. Okay. I understand that it is not the Dark Queen but a prayer to one might be like praying to another right? So I asked her how she worships her god. The answer suprised me. She said I spread knowledge and wisdom as this is what he wants. So that got me thinking about things. If the god of wisdom and knowledge wants those spread. The goddess of death and darkness would want me to persue that right?
That of course leads me to a whole nother rank about seeking a means to spread this but I tire and need to rest.
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Humble Beginnings
It is a few days after the incident I guess I will call it. Funny I should call it that but really no idea what to call something that so changes ones life. My memory is rather foggy about that. I know a few things for certain and something I am well guessing at. I know I was putting together something or other about the sewers. I think, but it is rather foggy, that there was a group of people down there? I am not really sure it is so hard to remember. What I do know is what happened afterwards. I remember being outside of the hospital. Bleeding from more places then I would like to remember. Barely holding on to life. I found my way into the hospital and meet a nice doctor. I remember him helping me to a bed.
Next I remember something about a nobles hunting party and poison? A noble was poisoned. No one could help him. I am not sure what happened after that I am guessing I feel back to sleep. Later I had the strength to leave. So I sneaked out of the hospital and thought I would go back to begging on the streets. Funny how things make such sense but it does not happen.
I continued to recovere my strenght and got thinking of how I found myself at the hospital. Obviously it was the work of a god. The god I worship is the Dark Queen. Thus it must have been her that spared my life. Or had I died? I could of died. If I died she returned me to life?
A problem this caused for me as I know so little about religion. I will have to find more out about this. Now armed with a purpose I will worship the Dark Queen and learn to make antipoison potions as this must of been why she saved one so worthelss as me.
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